I feel lost. I know, nothing new. But for a while there, things were starting to look up. Now I feel like things are settling back into the same lowness, and this worries me.
I feel like things will be better once the stresses of school are over, but then what? I can't escape from the weight of my future.
Why can't I just get better?
I think Israel will be therapeutic for me. I hope so, at least. Israel is at least one beautiful part of my future. This is what I want to do in Israel: study for the GRE, read a ton of books, read the Bible, swim in Galilee, write, have passionfruit popsicles, lie under the palm trees in the evening. Sigh. You would not believe how much my heart is straining right now.
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I'd believe! :) Have a popsicle under a tree for me too!
Dearest Christine--
Just thought I'd let you know that I creepily creep on your blog a lot. Like, once a week.
Also, Patriot Pops are much tastier. Mmm.
Most sincerely,
Kevin Aabel, Sr.
I love you, and I hope that now that school is over, everything's coming up roses for you. :) You're the best! :) Mwah.
Hey Kevin, like, two months later. I haven't seen you in forever. Still reading the blog? I've kind of stopped updating it recently and have moved on to lambchopfamilyalbum.blogspot.com
Anyway, how have you been? Send me an email sometime.
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