Saturday, January 3, 2009

And loses herself in her dreaming and sleep

So last night, I had one of my recurring performance dreams. This one was about Once Upon A Mattress, which must have had a big impact on me since that performance was two years ago. And somehow, Screamtown also showed up in that dream, and even my dream self shuddered at the thought of it.

But more interesting was my dream from two nights ago. First I was swimming with sharks in a deep-sea ravine, and then that ravine somehow turned into castle ruins, and I became Hamlet, but I could fly. Well, not so much fly as kick off from the ground and then hover. It wasn't a very controlled process and I recall being frustrated with the aimlessness of it all in the dream, particularly as it resulted in being captured by the nurse from Romeo and Juliet*. But somehow I escaped her and was able to get outside to a hedged in garden (not underwater anymore), where the dream proceeded to become a full-fledged Broadway musical with me as Hamlet, leaping along the hedge and singing the smash hit "I'm Back Where I Started From!" Scene change to me approaching the castle again, where I am captured once again. That's all I remember.

*Note: I only realized the continuity error of this when I woke up. At the time, I assumed she was part of the story. Plus, I was too busy planning my big Broadway debut.

Why am I writing about this? Well, the strange content of my dream as well as the need for something to do led me to look up dream interpretations, and almost everything pointed to this: negative/neglected emotions and a feeling of inactivity/lack of direction. So, I'm trying to remedy that through writing this. Also, I just looked at some things from last night's dream, and they pointed to a desire to be noticed.

Well. Here I am!

1 comment:

dejavualloveragain said...

You always seem so gloomy in your blog. Maybe you just confront your darker thoughts more than I do.