Freedom! Heyday! Heyday! Freedom!

I can't get over how ridiculous rehearsals for The Tempest have been. I don't think I've ever acted so crazy in public in all my life. Anyway, I think we've reached the point I always love--the "this shit just got real" moment when directors say how long we have until opening in terms of rehearsals, just to put it into perspective.

This year so far has been really good. It's been refreshing and new for me. I feel like a different person, and I feel like I have a new life because of that.

I've really been enjoying my Cell Biology labs, which is weird for me because I've always hated labs. In a way, I'm excited about this because it means that I'll be able to deal with the lab aspect of research, so I won't have to have a job where I enjoy half of it (field work) and hate the other half (lab). However, at the same time, it makes me a little sad to find that I enjoy this and now have no aversion that would compel me to duck out of science and pursue something else like a career in the arts.

It's almost as if I subconsciously had my mind made up that I would someday change direction, but that decision doesn't make much sense anymore. I'm having to look at my life in a new way now. These decisions are real now, not just theoretical.

I usually try to have some ending to these posts, but I'm at a loss here. This post has no conclusion. It's just a fragment, not a summary of something larger.

Nothing but trouble

Sufjan. Sufjan Stevens. Sufjan Stevens. Sufjan Stevens. Gave me a hug.

It's too late now, your fun's been had

I started trying to do my homework at maybe 6:00. I've gotten nothing done. Boo. Although, I got a lot done this weekend...I've just hit a wall.

And now, even though I have really nothing to say, I feel like forcing my way through nothing is better than trying to accomplish something.

Oh dear.

I bet it has to do with my eating habits this weekend. I ate a lot of sugar, and I think that's screwing up my focus. Maybe. I'm just making stuff up.

Anyway, I'm finding that I'm a total geology nerd. I just...love rocks.

I think weekends are just bad for me. I need the week in order to be really productive. So...I'm calling it quits for tonight.